udah mati..
#mungkin ini posting terakhir gw...karna hari ini jam 14:00 waktu indonesia barat...gw lagi mencoba untuk bunh diri karna gw udah ga tahan sama cobaan hidup gw ini
#yang gw pengen lo smua tau gw sayang banget sama nyokap gue...tapi gw ga tau dia masih sayang apa engga sama gue?..
#entah kenpa gw ga punya rasa syg sama sekali sama kaka kandung gw..tapi gw lebih sayang sama kaka sepupu gw...ka putri gw sayang sama lo..
#buat nurul gw mau dia tau kalo sampe saat ini gw masih sayang bgt sama dia dan gw masih cinta sama dia...walaupun gw tau dia udah ga ada feel sama gue
#sory buat mantan" gw selama ini gw jadian sama lo ga ada perasaan gw cuma masih sayang sama nurul...
#BUNDA AKU MINTA MAAF AKU TAU AKU SALAH TAPI AK UDAH GA TAHAN SAMA SEMUA INI JADI AKU LEBIH MEMILIH UNTUK MATI...KARNA AKU TAU BUNDA JUGA UDH GA PEDULI LAGI SAMA AKU
Senin, 20 Juli 2009
Sabtu, 11 Juli 2009
bad day
this is the bad day ever in my life..gilaaa hari ini sial bgt gue..
1.ga jadi main asg padahal pagi2 gw sama si arga udh k splash buat cek tempat..
ternyata splash udh jadi tempat buat main futsal..
2.gw ga enak sama temen gw.dia udah nungguin gw ternyata gw ngasih kabar kalo ga jadi main asg..
3. si dia(mantan gw yg tercinta) hari ini jadian sama cowo lain BANGSAT!!!!!!!argh!!!!!!emosi gw...
ancur bgt hati gw hari ini....
4.tadi gw d salahin lagi sama tante gue d kira gw yg ngajak2 sepupu gw trus gw d kira minta naterin plg...dan gw d omelin sama tante gw tp kyknya emg takdir gw always be the black sheep(kambing hitam)
1.ga jadi main asg padahal pagi2 gw sama si arga udh k splash buat cek tempat..
ternyata splash udh jadi tempat buat main futsal..
2.gw ga enak sama temen gw.dia udah nungguin gw ternyata gw ngasih kabar kalo ga jadi main asg..
3. si dia(mantan gw yg tercinta) hari ini jadian sama cowo lain BANGSAT!!!!!!!argh!!!!!!emosi gw...
ancur bgt hati gw hari ini....
4.tadi gw d salahin lagi sama tante gue d kira gw yg ngajak2 sepupu gw trus gw d kira minta naterin plg...dan gw d omelin sama tante gw tp kyknya emg takdir gw always be the black sheep(kambing hitam)
Selasa, 07 Juli 2009
until the day i die
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you
As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die too
I'd die too
You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does
We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!!!
[Lyrics to early version are a bit different:]
As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die too
I'd die too
You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Do you need this as bad as I do? (Until the day I die)
And do you need this as bad as I do? (Until the day I die)
Yeah do you need this as bad as I do? (Until the day I die)
Yeah do you need this as bad as I do, as I do? (Until the day I die)
ini lagu buat cewe yg masih gw syg sampe saat ini...nama cewe itu adlah ****/L
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you
As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die too
I'd die too
You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does
We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!!!
[Lyrics to early version are a bit different:]
As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die too
I'd die too
You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Do you need this as bad as I do? (Until the day I die)
And do you need this as bad as I do? (Until the day I die)
Yeah do you need this as bad as I do? (Until the day I die)
Yeah do you need this as bad as I do, as I do? (Until the day I die)
ini lagu buat cewe yg masih gw syg sampe saat ini...nama cewe itu adlah ****/L
Senin, 06 Juli 2009
thoughts of suicide for that never disappear from my mind every problem I have in my life
Gw sering bgt dapet masalah yg rumit d rumah...kayak berantem sama nyokap,sama kk gw...setiap gw dapet masalah baru gw,cuma bisa nangis kyk org tolol dan berfikir untk bunuh diri..
dan fikiran untk bunuh diri itu selalu ada setiap gw brantem sama nyokap kalo ga sama kaka gw..gw benci bgt kalo berantem sama kaka gw, karna setiap gw berantem sama dia gw selalu d pojokan kyk gw yg PALING SALAH DAN SMUA GARA-GARA GW, padahal ga semuanya gara-gara gw..tapi nyokap gw selalu memihak kaka gw....dan gw-pun emang jarang ngoborl sama nyokap jadi sering miss understanding, trus emg pendapat gw sama nyokap selalu beda...gw juga kurang kasih sayang dari org tua..karna dari kecil bokap gw udh meninggal dan nyokap jadi lebih sibuk buat nyari duit..
jadinya gw kurang perhatian dari orgtua...
sebenernya itu lah semua penyebab dari masalah yg sering keluarga gw hadapi sekarang..
dan gw korbannya org yg selalu d pojokan sebagai trouble maker...
That is a problem that always make me think for suicide
dan fikiran untk bunuh diri itu selalu ada setiap gw brantem sama nyokap kalo ga sama kaka gw..gw benci bgt kalo berantem sama kaka gw, karna setiap gw berantem sama dia gw selalu d pojokan kyk gw yg PALING SALAH DAN SMUA GARA-GARA GW, padahal ga semuanya gara-gara gw..tapi nyokap gw selalu memihak kaka gw....dan gw-pun emang jarang ngoborl sama nyokap jadi sering miss understanding, trus emg pendapat gw sama nyokap selalu beda...gw juga kurang kasih sayang dari org tua..karna dari kecil bokap gw udh meninggal dan nyokap jadi lebih sibuk buat nyari duit..
jadinya gw kurang perhatian dari orgtua...
sebenernya itu lah semua penyebab dari masalah yg sering keluarga gw hadapi sekarang..
dan gw korbannya org yg selalu d pojokan sebagai trouble maker...
That is a problem that always make me think for suicide
terang muncullah gelap
momment bahagia
#liburan yg penuh dengan kesenangan dengan seng sara..
liburan tahun ini gw lebih mengisi liburan gw sama sepupu gw yg seumuran dan sama sahabat-sahabat ga..
#awal-awal liburan kita ber3 hunting air soft gun d mana-mana..
trus kita mencoba mall baru d daerah tanggerang yaitu sms(super mall sumarecon)
kita ber3 mau nyobain mall baru d daerah tangerang karna udh terlanjur bosan dgn mall d jakarta tau tmpt hang out d jakarta....
#yang paling cape..ada adalah pas gw jalan sbt minggu kemaren..niatnya gw cuma mau k puri indah mall,pas gw lagi jalan sendirian tiba2 temen gw smsin gw ngajak clubbing..karna sahabat gw itu ga pernah clubbing jadi ya gw temenin..walaupun duit gw ngepas bgt..
Karna duit gw ngepas akhirnya gw smsin temen gw si aconk buat minta GL/INVT lumayankan kalo ada gw bisa dapetin gratisan...
dan kata temen gw ada..dan akhirnya gw sama sahabat gw itu ngumpul dulu d pim buat ketemuan.abis dari pim kita k senayan k club yg kata temen gw bisa masuk gratis..
ternyata pas gw sampe d sana emg masuknya gratis...tp musti open table...
dan akhirnya gw sama temen" gw k kemang nyari club yg msknya murah...
momment gelap
#selsai gw clubing sama temen" gw kita smua ga bisa plg karna kehabisan ongkos..
sampe akhirnya gw nlvn nyokap gw yg udh tidur unuk nyiapin duit buat bayar ongkos taksi(anak durhaka gw)dan akhirnya gw sama temen" gw pulang....
sekitar jam 6 gt tante gw nlvn nyokap gw.. (it's privacy about me and my fammily)dan selsai itu sumpah gw nyesel bgt dan sampe skrg gw msh ga enak sama sepupu gw si **** sorry bgt man emg smuanya salah gw...
kalo ga jelas maklumin ya...
#liburan yg penuh dengan kesenangan dengan seng sara..
liburan tahun ini gw lebih mengisi liburan gw sama sepupu gw yg seumuran dan sama sahabat-sahabat ga..
#awal-awal liburan kita ber3 hunting air soft gun d mana-mana..
trus kita mencoba mall baru d daerah tanggerang yaitu sms(super mall sumarecon)
kita ber3 mau nyobain mall baru d daerah tangerang karna udh terlanjur bosan dgn mall d jakarta tau tmpt hang out d jakarta....
#yang paling cape..ada adalah pas gw jalan sbt minggu kemaren..niatnya gw cuma mau k puri indah mall,pas gw lagi jalan sendirian tiba2 temen gw smsin gw ngajak clubbing..karna sahabat gw itu ga pernah clubbing jadi ya gw temenin..walaupun duit gw ngepas bgt..
Karna duit gw ngepas akhirnya gw smsin temen gw si aconk buat minta GL/INVT lumayankan kalo ada gw bisa dapetin gratisan...
dan kata temen gw ada..dan akhirnya gw sama sahabat gw itu ngumpul dulu d pim buat ketemuan.abis dari pim kita k senayan k club yg kata temen gw bisa masuk gratis..
ternyata pas gw sampe d sana emg masuknya gratis...tp musti open table...
dan akhirnya gw sama temen" gw k kemang nyari club yg msknya murah...
momment gelap
#selsai gw clubing sama temen" gw kita smua ga bisa plg karna kehabisan ongkos..
sampe akhirnya gw nlvn nyokap gw yg udh tidur unuk nyiapin duit buat bayar ongkos taksi(anak durhaka gw)dan akhirnya gw sama temen" gw pulang....
sekitar jam 6 gt tante gw nlvn nyokap gw.. (it's privacy about me and my fammily)dan selsai itu sumpah gw nyesel bgt dan sampe skrg gw msh ga enak sama sepupu gw si **** sorry bgt man emg smuanya salah gw...
kalo ga jelas maklumin ya...
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